update for a cold January

Just thought I’d throw a quick update together because it’s been a while.

As usual I’ve been steadily adding comics to the collection and it’s actually starting to grow rather nicely.

my collection as of Jan 2014

my collection as of Jan 2014

I’ve had to expand my Image section quite a bit because they keep putting out such high-quality books. Right now I can think of at least six that are worth checking out. For now here are a few that are on my reading list at the moment just on the Image side of things. Later ill expand on these but for now, the highlights in list form:

1 – Saga
2 – Morning Glories
3 – Sex Criminals
4 – East of West
5 – Manifest Destiny
6 – Rocket Girl
7 – Pretty Deadly
8 – Alex + Ada
9 – Black Science
10 – Ten Grand

I’ve also picked up a few cool autographs that ill be posting about soon. Ive been putting off that post i the hops that one or two i have on order would show up but patience is a virtue when dealing with pre-order deals 🙂

Non-comics wise, things march ever on: work is long, tiring, stressful and not at all what i want to be doing with my life. not that its a bad job, far from it. its a very nice working environment, nice people, nice owner, nice pay…it’s just not where i need to be and that’s causing me some stress/anxiety problems. Thankfully nothing as bad as it has been.


A few friends and i have been playing weekly games of Star Wars X-Wing and we have really come to love it – its a table-top, miniatures based ‘dog-fighting’ game featuring ships from Star Wars. Its a lot of fun and it helps that the little ships are ultra-detailed and have inspired a bunch of players to repaint their ships with their own team colors or just a different color scheme all together: it’s something i would like to try but i have never done any kind of painting like that before. it would be a challenge but fun nonetheless.

i really need a car. i miss being able to take day trips out of town from time to time. i haven’t been to Magic Mountain in years and i really need a trip…soon. I miss rollercoasters badly. That’s my therapy and after my heart attack i wasn’t sure if i would be allowed on them again. I’d kind of like to ride a few more before i have another and i’m REALLY not going to be able to ride one.

And now its time to enjoy whats left of my weekend. I really need to be doing some cleaning but i just feel like being lazy and reading while on the couch. Ive been putting off giving the dog a bath – if nothing else i should do that today. Mabey is not a big fan of the bath and she’s a powerful little doggy so when she doesn’t want to be somewhere, she lets you know. I think both of us will be getting a bath.




beaten for now

“There is a girl in New York City
Who calls herself the human trampoline
And sometimes when I’m falling, flying
Or tumbling in turmoil I say
Oh, so this is what she means”
-Paul Simon, Graceland

i feel beat up today. Literally and figuratively. I took a spill on my bike Saturday night and didn’t really feel it until Sunday night when the bruises came out and the banged up muscles really started to yell.

work was another 8 hours of tech support. We were busy today. That job leaves me exhausted in a way i wasn’t prepared for. Today wasn’t really bad, but a annoying call early on set the mood and i was unable to crawl out of it completely. I still have no confidence in my ability to do my job. I had to take a xanax today so i was tired as hell all day; even the .25mg’s make you want to take a nap really bad. It helped keep the worst of the anxiety and dread at bay.

So im looking at a bottle of wine i was saving for a friend that could be there awhile by the looks of it. I want to crack it open and get really drunk and crawl into bed. Trouble is i want a cup of coffee too. i can’t have both. Chances are ill have neither. Even dinner is going to require the smallest of effort and i probably wont end up doing that either. I got nuthin left in the tank. Its time to just throw in the towel and call today a victory.

Not my victory however. Monday won. We will meet again.


An actual, honest to god blog post!!

Quick update for those who care:

Still sick but at least I slept last night; sick I can deal with – Sick plus insomnia is unbearable. Dark thoughts the last 2 days. My Prozac thoughts were not that dark. It brought home how much of a wreck I am and any semblance of the person I used to be is a quickly fading memory…

but on with the update.

Im currently looking to get a second, or new job because i’m tired of being poor. I cant afford to do anything with what i’m currently paid (an amount that hasn’t changed in 4 years) so its time to move on. There isn’t much more i can learn there anyway and there is no advancement possible so its for the best. I will hopefully be working with my brother at Eureka Burger as a busser…kind of a step back but it is something i can do, that restaurant seems to pay well and i will be able move to a serving position very quickly (cause im awesome) and i would actually make enough to own a car again. That would rule. With that i could enroll in school. another goal.

long term there are some VERY interesting things coming together in the next year or two that would actually be the closest thing to a ‘Passion Project” as i could imagine for me. And one of my biggest life problems is focusing on one thing im passionate about. Im interested in so many things choosing one to focus on as a ‘career’ is impossible under those conditions. That and not being able to fit school into my schedule. I really cant talk about it yet; its still in the earliest stages of imagining and planning. Serious work on it will not be possible until a few things happen, but once the ball is rolling, i expect it to come together rather quickly.

Here’s what i can say…

It will be something i’ve been into since i was 13 and it would be an endeavor with one of my best friends (who also shares the interest).
It will be something i would have to devote pretty much all my time to but that doesn’t worry me.
It will be something that is going to be hard but it would be something i would look forward to do everyday.
It will be something that will not make me rich by any stretch of the imagination, even if very successful but that doesn’t worry me.
It will be something i can be proud of.

Obviously i will post more as things come together and i can lift the veil of secrecy. Sorry about that 🙂

Hurry home, man!

I think everyone knows this but ill throw it out there again anyway: i was finally able to get my grubby hands on an iphone so if you don’t have my number and would like it, let me know. I don’t like posting it in the Facebook info so its not listed so to speak. I was happy cause for once i got a number that even i will have a hard time forgetting 🙂

Finally, i will be contributing articles to the Horn Photo Blog that my friend and co-worker Jeremiah started a few weeks ago. I will probably focus on reviews of iOS photography apps but i cant rule out an op-ed piece or something else photography related that strikes my fancy.

This is good because it will force me to write again. I miss writing but you can only write about death and darkness so often before people turn and run and your closest friends think its time to have you committed; and of late (years) thats all i can see. I used to (try to) write about whatever i could just to do it (movie reviews, opinions, nonsense) but motivation is the first thing to go in a brain that has decided Sadness is the default setting. The second is personal grooming which leads to Lazy Beard. This blog will force me, albeit irregularly, to at least WRITE. Thats the important thing. Do it. Do it some more. Keep doing it…

So a public thanks to Jeremiah Henry, Horn Photo IT Manager, for the invite. You are helping me to be not lazy. Ill of course post a link to the blog when written and online.

Well i guess thats enough of an update for now. The pleasant stuff anyway. Im leaving out the death and darkness.